Egoistic Hardship

Mann....i'm feeling my lowest low. I think i lost my image. Let me tell you what happened...

Soo there i was with my mum and dad at a nearby coffee shop eating mixed rice. I was told to chop a seat while they ordered the food. I looked around. For a short moment of time, I felt small. Just small. It was weird because i always pictured myself a fancy protector...a lean mean fighting machine...but i felt small. Chinese people were staring at me, like vultures patiently waiting for me to die inside. " DAMN..." i thought to myself. I was hoping that my mum would come soon. Finally the food was delivered promptly. I ate quietly.

Such a short moment of time i felt diminutive already. How was I to face the world when i grow up? There are alot of back-stabbing, good for nothing people waiting to tear me down in the future. Now i truly believe that the world is a nasty place. I never would have thought that i would have to face this problem...but i just realised it. Who would have thought that a person of my calibre would ever think herself as afraid? I never would have but wait... I JUST DID! I'm being demoralised already, by myself.

I think of this as a mid-life crisis phase. I'm even losing my good friend due to bloody study commitments. [Sigh] To top that of IT'S RAINING ACID RAIN. Thanks Sumatra. See what i mean? I complaining about everything! ERRGH! I better end this post before i complain about something else....my hands are hurting...stupid computer...opps...spoke too soon.